29 December, 2009

WorstCaseScenario

When it comes to men, women don't know how to be content with the 8,514,257 sq. ft Victorian on the corner overlooking the city, that's the nicest space available. They'd rather invest in the beat up fixxer upper in the slums so they can go in, work their "magic," and be left with a gorgeous house with a solid foundation that they can say they worked hard on, and it paid off. Until, in most cases, a new buyer comes along and gets the house they put so much effort into.



Magic does not exist.

04 December, 2009

DancingInTheRain

Today my mom and I had a really good talk about the present and the future, and what things are going to be like when my generation runs the world. Its truly an interesting thought. Did you know they refer to us as 'Generation Me' ? Meaning..we are more focused on ourselves than any other group before us. I'm concerned to see what we do with this place, and whether or not we'll learn how to be a little less selfless for the sake of everyone. Tough call.

We talked about what I want to do with my life. And even though I didn't exactly know and couldn't explain it, I was geniuinely excited. I know I'm gonna finish school and move. I know I'm gonna take some business classes and save some money and do my own thing. Be self employed? I have authority problems- my less than successful high school career can show you that. But I want to do something worth taking a chance on, instead of 'playing it safe' and getting a masters and then taking the chance countless graduated Americans are taking now, hoping someone will hire them. I'm gonna hire me! I'm not gonna owe uncle same 16 years worth of student loans and still be fighting for what little jobs that will be left. I feel like it can't hurt to try..

I'm on a positive note for the time being. Maybe even from now on? I won't push it. Lol


I've always had drive,
Gets me where I'm going when I don't have a ride.

30 November, 2009

LostOnes

Lost me.

Its official all I need is a whistle

27 November, 2009

MuchMore

MY GREATEST ENEMY IS MY INNER ME.

24 November, 2009

Low

An intense feeling of self-loathing just came over me.

How do I begin to explain my issue without making others loathe me as well? If I can do it you can do it.

17 November, 2009

Hindsight

"My heart stop pumpin tomorrow, dont feel no sorrow
Life is hard mentally
And everything is meant to be
Sometimes I sit and wonder I die, who would remember me?"

14 November, 2009

FindAWay

Now you caught my heart for the evening
Kissed my cheek, moved in, you confuse things
Should I just sit out or come harder?
Help me find my way

Q-Tip:
Messing me up, my whole head
Teasing me, just like Tisha, did Martin
Now look at what you're starting
Schoolboy's crush and it ain't on the hush
The whole world sees it but you can't (uh)
My peoples they complain, sit and rave and rant
Your name is out my mouth like an ancient chant
Got me like a dog as I pause and pant...

Phife:
Speaking of which, got a leash and I wish just to rock you miss
Make a militant move, peep my strategy
End of the day you're not mad at me
Not dealing with nobody, now that's what you told me
I said: "hey yo, it's cool, we can just be friendly"
'Cause yo, picture me messing it up
Her mind not corrupt with the ill C-Cups
Shit, I'm on my J.O.
Bullshitting, hoping that the day goes slow
Got me like a friend, what confuses me though
Is kisses when we greet, tell me what's the deal yo?

Q-Tip:
Now why you wanna go and do that, love, huh?
Making things for me towards you harder
Killing me, just when I think we're there
You got the whole vibe and the flows in the air
Telling me 'bout next man
But next man ain't the nigga with the plan
Who got your heart in mind?
It's about time that you just unwind

Phife:
And let it just happen, make it front-free
Just sweat me like Moneypenny
Digging you, getting inside of your stee
It's the Quest thats keeping you company
Forever, or however you want it

Q-Tip:
Word word, now wait a minute now before you jet it to the curb
Start to make affections, which is good not the hurt
But it, it aint me, and I, I ain't blurred
I'ma still just chill with you
Maybe things could change if you change your view
If not then I guess it its cool
Just to keep to yourself and abide by the rules

10 November, 2009

Intuition

I call them how I see them, and I was right about you from day one.


Trust is a word you seldom hear from us
Hustlas we don't sleep, we rest one eye up

24 October, 2009

Whos gonna kiss it

11 October, 2009

AnotherShortStory

Sleep well,
Don't worry yourself with my being. Make haste on your path towards a beautiful life. Forgive me and accept my gift of a less troublesome existence.

09 October, 2009

#1Stunnas

Won'tDo

Its terrifying how easily people/situations affect me. I am scared to get close to you in fear that you will run away.

20 September, 2009

PursuitOfHappiness

LITERALLY 2 cute 4 school

05 September, 2009

ParappaTheRappa


WHOOO remembers Parappa the Rappa!??! My cousin reminded me of it today and as soon as i saw this video i hellaaa remember playing it. Like it was yesterday. Crazy how fast the days pass now..

Wish life had a pause button like this youtube clip :/

03 September, 2009

DatNewNew




Cudi BAPE tee? survey says..DOPE

02 September, 2009

Hate



KanYe, s'il vous plait ;)

24 July, 2009

BluCollaWorker

They say misery loves company but I don't need shit so don't come to me

22 July, 2009

FlashyWords

Shihan on Def Jam Poetry

Flashy words make the world turn but it dont turn right
So i use these real eyes to realize the real lies being spoken but not heard cause
We are more fascinated by that which is fabricated
The icono-classic tactless tactition
Aims toungues spits truth words
Like wrecking balls bounce off brains cause nobody likes to hear whats going on these days
Its like the truth hurts
And we've been lied to a bunch of hollowed minds livin on borrowed times
And nobody likes to hear that
And nobody likes to say it either cause
Lazy angels never carry their wings
And wingless words do nothin but keep us down
So this new york poet yells
There is no satisfaction in knowing that your life is one of the sadest fictions ever written
So take your not-so-satisfactory life back to the sadness factory to
Be reworked and to
Be rewritten and to
Be reconfigured to live right
Open your brain let your heart go
The real you has been locked within your rib cage for too long and
Stop trying to hold on to then cause thats where it all started
And about that same time he forgot fun
She lost hope and now we
Cant find anything
And i swear to god if i could swear to god
I'd ask her what the fuck was she thinkin when she gave us free will
cause we done fucked things up cause kids dont play and god dont pray cause its out of her hands now
See ive rewritten the bible after getting over the primal rage of findin my name disguised within a bibles page and
People trying to disect my destiny
Will find that words somehow make the world turn but it really doesnt turn right
And suddenly the world stops spinnin cause words werent good enough
So i tell you a blind man once told me the true meanin of love at first sight
So i closed my eyes and i recited this poem
To an audience of one and found total gratification and my undivided attention
And when i opened my eyes
I found myself standin before a mirror
Staring into the eyes of an invisible man until my pupils became pupils and i could teach myself to live a better life
Words.
From a peice of mine brings peace of mind all i gotta do is give a peice of mine?
Or in other words peice together the peices in me to create peace within me
But shit they are all peices
Peices to a puzzle when put together is me
So let me tell you somethin
Dont ever do anything youre not supposed to
And speak only when spoken to
And dont speak unless you mean
Cause a good man is hard to find
And a hard man is good to find
And im half the man i used to be
And one fourth the person i should be or could be cause
I sacrificed freedom for stardom
After being fucked out of my freedom without a condom
Now how dumb was i
Words.
Break these words down to the syllables they are or the silly bulls they represent
And what do i represent?
Well its hard to say when my rep presents the fact that i have to question myself or each time that question re-presents itself
I can therefore i am
And sticks and stones may break your bones but
Words will always teach you




Deep.

30 May, 2009

Karma

I am, the one you denied
Pushed me off everytime I tried
But Im alright
Im able to swallow my pride
And put all the bullshit to the side
If your ready to ride
Im down for a one night stand
Ill accept it any way that I can
Cause I aint yo man
Ill try for what ever its worth
Just remember who played who first

..Ya had me feelin like a fool when I hollad
Tryina squeeze in but you wouldn't bother
And I aint either
Soon as I realize that I ain't neither
in a rush to get close to me but I aint eager
Shiiiit